Stay With Me.

After a day

2012-01-22T01:38:00.003+08:00

TO: WhaleyTan
After a day, I stl dont feel good. Even thou I was with you, you make me forget everything for a moment. And thank you for that, but it stl doesnt make me forget.
My dad doesnt like me, he think I went back to stay with him for revenge... What kind of father would think that way. I thought I came back to stay with him for the money. But why am I sad when I remember what he said.
Later we should be eating reunion dinner. He taught me what was reunion dinner when I was young, but reunion dinner alrdy has no meaning in our family. My brother wont be home for reunion dinner, my sis and I are not on talking terms... My dad and I are not like father-daughter relationship. My mom is not going to be with me. Ever since I left house, CNY has never been fun for me.
I wanted to tell you all this face-to-face, but I just cant start telling you, but just cry.
I wasnt feeling good ytd, first I was sad because I have to be at home. I know that my dad will start again... Thats why I want you to be with me, you told me bfr all I have to do is ask. But I did ask you to accompany me ytd, but you couldnt. Sad + sad... Because my dad started his naggingggg

Poon Said

2012-01-22T01:30:00.000+08:00

"Dont rely on others, because you place hope on them and make yourself vulnerable when they disappoint you."
"What are the odds"
Poon told me this two things and rlly make me felt better ytd.

):

2012-01-20T21:31:00.001+08:00

I dont remember what I said after a day or two. But you remember it clearly~

Its Friday, and 2 more days to CNY! I dont feel happy at all. My dad is giving me all those crap! I didnt came to this world to suffer all this. He said as a father he has to suffer crap that we gave him. But the fact, I purposely go home late, dont see him much. I having going home late, not getting enough sleep and I AM SICK. So that we dont have to talk it out. Frankly speaking, I dont think communication work with our father-daughter relationship. We are like strangers that use to know each other so well, staying together. He encourages us to tell him how... But whats the point, he will find all the reason to deny what we say... Bro tried to say out his view, and what did he get? He get scolding and being ignore by dad. Sis dont want to come home to face dad, what she got, being ignore too. A home litdat who wants it? I always remember how life was before things start changing. I love the dad that use to joke with me. I love the mom that scolds me. I love my brother that creates laughter everyday. I love my sister that quarrel with me. At least, all of us were together. Why eat reunion dinner when we aren’t together alrdy?

I am the only person in the house that goes through the normal student life, my bro fail his O levels, he wants to take private O, but if he take private, he cant defer his NS. I dont know how to talk him out to go ite... I dont know how can I tell my sister to not be late for work and start working hard, so she can saved up and study. I want to go to university. But I dont have the time, I want to go for private, its only one and a half years, I cant even spare one year and six months. I have to start working and get out of this house, so I can stay with my mom, sis and bro. Finally I almost survive these 2years of poly, is coming to the end and I will get a diploma and start working... I miss my mom. ALOT~ I love being with her, she always make me feel so comfortable no matter whr I am as long as I am with her.

I thought I was comfortable with you too, but you cant be with me 24/7. I have to accept the harsh fact that you are not mine. What I have with me is always just me, pikachuchu and xiaohou.

No point crying adeline. Its useless… Just go to bed, pick yourself up and try to smile during CNY.

2012-01-10T16:44:00.000+08:00

Happy first year WhaleyTan, SardineTan, PiggyTan! HAHAHAHA! He is someone so nice, beyond description! I am waiting for him to end UT, he can stl study while I sleep on his lap. So nice, I mean any other person will feel uncomfortable to study with a laptop when someone is sleeping on your lap. After his UT we going to do what we did one year ago...

I love you a lot a lot a lot! MUACKSSSSSSSSSSSssss

Happy New Year

2012-01-03T01:39:00.000+08:00

Hi, is alrdy 3jan. I am here to say Happy new year to my blog! You have been so nice to me over the years!
New resolution?

Go to school everyday
Give my best shot for everything I am doing
Love my boyf more ^^ Be nice to him
More time with my mom
More time with my girlf too
Everyone be happy with their life

School tmrw! Good night! ^^ Everything is fine! (:

):

2011-12-29T17:01:00.001+08:00

As much as I dont want to bring this up... I think I have to, is getting on my nerves. I think is my fault for being to sticky, wanting to be with you all the time. But your . is getting in btw us. All the plans we have during newyear eve also cant be done.
You are also getting immune to my crying, my tantrums... When I was telling U U I actually feel like crying. How sad can I go?

2 more days

2011-12-29T11:48:00.000+08:00

TADA! Luncheon meat fried rice! And boyf do it for me, even he had headache. So nice of him! (: But I insist on doesnt need the overnight rice and I put too much water, rice to sticky! Even with the help of technology, I stl cant make it! Haisssss, guys that can cook is so attractive! *BLINK BLINK*

Staying at boyf house for days~ I haven go home since dont know how many days! HAHAHA! I like this thou, but I dont know abt you.

Spend the last ladies night of the year with her! Just us two, romantic! HAHAHA! MUACK MUACK

2 more days to the end of the year, I stl haven do up new year resolutions and forecast for my dad! ): KILL ME! I have no idea how to start...

AND I FOUND OUT THAT I DIDNT INCULDE MY POLY FRENS IN MY BLOG PHOTO! I want to add these people in the photo of the blog because they are the one that make my life interesting and things to blog abt. Things that happened btw us, and memories that stayed in us.

I changed the pic

2011-12-26T19:10:00.000+08:00

HEHEHE! Hi Hi Hi, is 7.07pm, and I haven eat my dinner, so is my sister. But boyf is sleeping! SIAO LIAOOOO, he will wake up soon! HAHAHA, I have my powers to wake him up! (;

OH, I changed the pic of my blog. Does it look werid with spacing? I kind of think it look weird but whale say it look fine to him just now...

I am bored, no work, no plans... Just rotting this holidays, shall start studying soon! I think I will only start when school starts!

Xoxoxoxo

Christmas ^^

2011-12-26T19:07:00.000+08:00

Mine

Qin's

Li's

Val's

I am in the phone

Gingerbread man!

Thanks basket, you helped us in grp photo!

All getting rdy to take photo!

Grp photo ^^

Look at this two girls! Dont want to take tgt

HEHEHE! I spend my Christmas night with them! SHHOO SWEET, they bought santa hats and the reindeer horns? HAHAHAHA! Some photos, two of us share one pair of horns. We spend most most the time at a restaurant at NEX. Erm... The food... We took lots of photos and had fun, how great would it be if Christmas is litdat every year! ^^

Christmas Eve

2011-12-24T01:51:00.000+08:00

Hi people,

I am back~ After A very long long long long time! I should try to maintain this blog!

I spend my Christmas Eve with my boyflenx, it was raining and I like the weather with him! He make me feel so warm!

We made pancake, but it turn out to be prata look-a-like, or egg look-a-like. I just dont have anything for cooking!

Take some photo bfr start

The mix with water~ We actually want to do it manually.

Then he found the electric mixer and he dont want let me do!

First attempt! Egg look-a-like

Second try, I got to do the electric mixer!!

Prata look-a-like

11Nov11

2011-11-12T16:53:00.000+08:00

So Adeline

She was so shy

LATE!

Tann was so happy she saw kinder surprise at cocoa tree! She gave us one each! (:

Jo just love to take photo with me!

HEHEHE! He dont want let me play!

I spend my 11.11.11 with my beloved frenssssss! Hahaha, nothing is special about this date, but everyone just like 1. I was telling them that we will meet 12.12.12 next year! I hope we can!
I miss them! Hing and daph couldnt make it! Tower heist was great! But everyone was tired that day!
I LOVE YOU GUYSSSSSS

hi, I am here again

2011-11-01T08:09:00.002+08:00

Hi,

I am back here. When I am here, I dont have worry that my blog will think that only when I need her I would be here. I dont need to be afraid that my blog will leave me like how humans coming in and out of your life. I know my blog would not find me irritating no matter how much things i post, in twitter people find me irritating.

I am so sad. I did not go to school again. I dont know what is wrong. That kind of motivation I had for the first few weeks are gone.

Life is a misery... I want to set things right, but they always go off the rail... IT WILL GO WAY OFF THE RAIL. Why? All I ever want was to be like any other girls to have my dad, mom, sister and brother to be happy. Getting everything they deserve. Having to work and study and get a life. But everytime there is always something else... I dont understand why me...War-like life...

Boyf always been nice to me, but whenever things dont go my way I will forced it thru, and make him pissed. Just like how this morning happen. Trying to wake him up and he look tired and pissed.

I think my life is gone, trying to pissed everyone off.

2011-09-20T11:59:00.003+08:00

i was on the page bfr i could start typing...it happen again... and now i want one and a half year to pass by quickly, i can graduate and buy a house to stay with my mom and brother. although when i stay with my mom i rarely see her and talk to her but its different when i dont stay with her. my mom needs me... but i am not thr, i know how she felt now, because i felt it last year, and i have my friends then, but she has no one but us...i hate my grandma! she suck, she should go to hell! shw should die! i hate her, i want mom now. at tien hsia when kids cry they will have their mom. but why dont i have my mom now?

I shall blog

2011-06-26T12:31:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA! Because someone is stalking my blog constantly and see the same post! Since today I am not working!

Super bored! I WANT TO CRY ALRD! I can study la! But who study on Sunday when there is no test coming up next week! okay, I go download my worksheet and problem statement for CSKO & RDM! I want chiong alrd! BTH, my grade damn cui!

I am looking fwd to it.

FUCK

2011-06-01T23:46:00.001+08:00

This is so frustrating, I don’t know whats up with me. When I saw that he couldn’t come I feel pek chek, not that he wants to come. half of me wants him here with me, half of me feel so angry about it. I don’t know what I want also. I guess, I am like my sister soon. WTF! I am so angry at myself, I just don’t know what I want. The way he say he want come my house, make me feel that his friends is more important than me. Of course, friends are important, they know what to say when you are feeling down, they know what you like, they know everything in the world, but when I found someone special they become important. But in his view, I don’t think I am. Especially recently, when I become so sticky. Fuck, I feel like crying now. I don’t know what I am typing, is in a mess, disorganize. I don’t know la, fuck.

I want all the time with you, only you.

2011-05-30T19:00:00.001+08:00

Batam receipt

I want you all the time I have with you, you are not the second choice. I don’t look for you when others bombed me, I don’t look for you when I can’t find others out, I don’t.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I wanted dinner tonight, but Angelina and youyou had dinner at home. So I called Alan out, but he is alrdy at JJ house. I actually felt sad, or is it unhappy? Whatever it is, is not good. He alrdy spend so much time with me and JJ also said that they rarely meet up nowadays. I am too greedyyy, always. I actually wanted to ask him out and make him. I can’t believe I wanted to do that, in the end I didn’t, is not right.

Anw, Batam trip is cfm, sexcited! Hehe, proof! I hide the amount and address; I don’t want people to think I got a lot of money and rob me at my house! Haha! Too drama, too much of peiu! Haha!

When?

2011-05-26T10:48:00.000+08:00

When can I be punctual for school? Frankly speaking, I have no idea. Blah blah blah, you guys seeing this will think that it’s all up to me. But I slept early last night, before 12mn! Yet, I can’t wake up on time.

I can’t blame her for saying things which are true, truth always hurts which lead to what we are now. I can’t blame people for giving up in me when they gave me the last bit of trust they had in me. I was the one that literally throw that last chance they gave me.

Is it back to what Mrs Tan told me years back “Adeline, did you try hard enough?”

How can someone studying at RP forget to bring laptop out for school? I can’t believe it too, but I forgot about it till halfway out! ):

I am so frustrated at myself.

Again

2011-05-17T22:04:00.000+08:00

Note to self. Again. :
1. BE IN SCHOOL EVERY SINGLE DAY TO SEE PEIU
2. Save money for overseas trip
3. Finish driving before PDl expire, one time pass!
4. Learn Korean
5. Save up for Lasik
6. Buy a book to read every month
7. Take care of self
8. SLIM DOWN IN THREE MONTHS!!!

Reminded of those studying days

2011-05-16T13:23:00.002+08:00

I went to Airport to study with Alan, yesterday at airport. First, I used to study at the Airport during the O levels days. Second, I was rlly motivated then. But we have problems finding power point, the bad part of being a RP student is to study with laptop. Is a distraction and we are using a lot of electricity.

Now I am at Kallang Leisure Park, Starbucks. I used to be here studying too, with Evelyn. My sister, sometimes I rlly feel useless not being able to help her and let her waste her life litdat. Now that whenever I go to school in the morning I see her lying on bed sleeping wondering if she wants to go back to study. But somehow my bloody dad doesnt want to help her, and my mom is too tired to help her. That left with me, her elder sister. But I have to work and study and a life to live too! How, we use to study together, wake up in the morning to go to school. What has changed us?

Recently, I have not being going to school AGAIN. I remember I always said that is a miracle to pass Ns and Os. But come to think about it, it was my friends that given me the help, the trust that I will work for it. Because I havent been going to school, and I got to talk to Angela. People, guess what, she tell others that she gave up on me when they ask why am I not in school. Is this what a friend will reply? Many of her reply are not encouraging but demoralizing. Am I that bad at judging people that are true to me? But there are nice people like peiu and chocolate around, asking me to go school. But I disappoint PeiU, and I feel sad about it. ):

My boyf is shho positive, if he is not here, I think I might end up quitting school too. I am stl not motivated to go school despite seeing my mom working so hard. If he is not here, I wont even be studying now. Thank You.

MISS YOUUUUuuuu

2011-05-09T01:03:00.002+08:00

MY BELOVED GIRLFS AND BOYF!

okay, girlfs and guy friend. Boyf sound wrong~ HAHA! I miss them! okay, I hope to see them on friday! PLEASE! EVERYONE, PLEASE MAKE IT! I MISS YOU LOTS!

ME: Miss youuuu!
JO: Eeeeyer! So cheezy!

LOL! this cute girl! anyway, she changed her number and I nearly send to her old number! Have to memorize her number again! I think I am good at remembering people contact number, I can remember chocolate number after I FaceTime him on Saturday!

Since i have nothing to do, and this two

2011-04-25T13:20:00.004+08:00

We met some days back!

I won xiangqin! HEHEHE~ POOL~~~ HAHAHA~ My boyf is good at it, so it influences me~ ;)

Like the title said, Since I have nothing to do. I am in school now, and my team is done with the ppt. Plus, i dont know whr my boyf go, he is not on MSN.

Very very very long ago, I had stop blogging. I am contented with my life, I have my friends, boyf and etc. Although I have to change class every semester, and the fact that I had stopped making friends. They are in and out of my life, but there are some that stays with me throughout. My beloved girlfssss Debbie and Daphne! I met that on Saturday, a very random last minute meet up. HAHA! A last minute, long meet up! It was great, take away the part I was the first to hibernate.

I want to meet up with hing, I miss her. :( She is having her As this year, I want her to do well so I haven seen her in a while. I also want meet up with xiangqin and lee ke~ although I meet up quite frequently with the, them but it’s like we never had enough time. But I do spend a lot of time with my boyf now… (:

Please tell me no.

2011-04-25T13:19:00.001+08:00

That news hit me! Ok, I am in the middle of class right now. I feel threaten now, ok! First time ever in my life I feel threaten. I always thought I am good to the extend I wont be replace. Kay, I know that no one is irreplaceable.

You are my good friend, I should feel happy for you that you get what you want. But there is this feeling that you are coming to replace me. Although sometimes I kept thinking you are not my friend, but I know I do treat you as one. I always contradict myself but you are also making me confuse. Who am I to you? I rlly need to know, so I know what to do. Are really here to replace me?

MUMMY YOU MENOPAUSE AH?

2011-04-06T22:32:00.000+08:00

I don’t know what happened to my mom now! I was enjoying myself at the class chalet, the event was name long awaited class chalet. First, all of us wanted this chalet badly, but we are so busy. Finally poon took the effort to plan, but I didn’t enjoy myself both days. It was worse today, she call screaming in the phone! What the fuck is wrong?

I was never grounded! I always have the freedom to go where I want since sec2! But at 19! You want to tell me to get home by 7pm everyday when I am not working! You go eat shit!

Fuck, I am damn pek chek now! Everything is not right…

SHANGHAI AND GENTING

2011-03-31T23:24:00.022+08:00

i love this polaroid!

SanNiang flicking daddy forehead! WAS SO FUNNY WHEN DADDY SAY HE WILL KICK SANNIANG ****

MUMMY

Fail shot, angel got cut!

i got hing this giraffe that time also...

Starbucks, 星巴可, good to drink it at other countries!

sannaing scoop soup and daddy scoop rice! SO SWEET.

That stun looking guy is daddy's cousin in shanghai.

i love this too!

how can sanniang ask mummy to marry him!!?

9 of us spend 80bucks and we were so full!

fish food lookalike cheese

showing my cute gloves dad got for me

average xiaolongbao

amazing that you use a straw for xiaolongbao when is not small

the herbal tea at china

ChenHuangMiao, nice right!

fail shot!

DADANG! got it but still a little pack.

so hard for me! when i wearing so think!

KEN STILL CAN POSE!

SO HUGE RIGHT!!!

Similar to ShuiZhuYu, but not so spicy! but i like!

Eddy, starbucks. Me, coke. Angel, nothing

she is so light!

the thing was moving and i dont know the brake! too many people chiong up!

No macPork. ):

Enjoying happy meal and mac. but i dont rlly look happy.

BEST FOOD I HAD IN CHINA!

Tuition Centre lookalike university classroom

Good speaker, pussycat girls~

GDP GDP GDP GDP

YEAH, we got mask!

OUCH!

still can smile, haha!

KO! jump shot and hit by a fan!

MOSTLY NOT TAKEN BY ME! i had fun, of course there are times that you all couldnt see it! cant wait for next trip!

:P :D ): :/ :S

2011-03-28T23:21:00.000+08:00

I am back from my long trip! But I am sick, flu jab is just useless~ Waste my time, and is painful you know. ):

Genting

Ok lo, I had fun! Although it was 2D1N but most of time was spend on travelling, travelling is just wasting of time, I can’t imagine how much time I am going to waste when school starts. The ride that I wanted to take the most was space shot but when I started queuing. There comes the rain! How bad my luck can get. I want to go genting again, and play or the ride, enjoy life, sleep and all! I want go with boyf leh~ HEHE…

Yiwu, Hangzhou, Shanghai

I had only a few comment on this trip, there were good and bad times. But more on the bad time, but these bad times make me understand how understanding you were, and these bad times make me confirm how right my friends and boyf were. Of course there were good times, I got a dad and mom from this trip. To be exact 3 moms! HAHA!
I hope to go to Genting again to take space shot, and go Shanghai again at night to see the bund. Haha!

PS, something is better left unspoken.

KEKEKE

2011-03-09T20:11:00.004+08:00

Printed Card

Foam

EXCITED ONLY!

WOOHOOSSSSSSSSS I pass my BTT AND FTT! WOAH, I thought I was going to fail. It was too last minute study, and I fail all my trial test. I am going start driving! I see my PDL I excited TTM! But just now when I jaywalk, I was thinking if I happen to be the driver instead of the pedestrian. How?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! I have also entered the last year of teen. In another 361 days I will be 20! Haha! I like the foam card, the printed card, the apple card, and the DIY book! I love the cake my colleague bought also. Sweet! Shisha, Asian restaurant, sizzler, tony romas! Full TTM!

My trip is coming also. Totally looking fwd to it! I love my life now! Life is treating me so nice now.

Note:
Get my pay!
Settle my Chef stuff! (And yes, I haven settle it.)
Pay my bills, pay my instructor.
Shopping for Shanghai!

After I come back from Shanghai, I will be moving back to Bedok. Although I will need to travel longer to school and work, but I am happier. I can take care of my mom and grandma. I can meet my frens easily. I hope to meet Poon and Jo at the middle of the night to go for breakfast. I hope to meet hing and tann every now and then for jog and swim! I hope to meet qin every Friday for midnight movie. Haha! I hope that meeting boyf will be easier! HOHOHO~ I can meet my dad and brother easily too! I suddenly want to play volleyball and tennis! Or pool also can!

Today is one of my slow pace day! SHIOK!

First.

2011-03-01T21:40:00.003+08:00

Brother

OK! I now back to the “mode” that tired because of work. I have work about a week plus straight! But I know I can do it! You know you need the money! HWAITING~ HAHA! MODE!

I had my first birthday celebration with BROTHER! HAHA! It has been long since I call her that! That was also how we knew each other! We always have times together that I can never forget! We talk about everything under the sun! And we are sure good friends, I got xiangqin disease! Yesterday I had time for myself, time to think about things. I found out that I actually miss my boyf a lot, we have not seen each other for very very very very very long time!

NOTE TO SELF:
1. PLEASE BE PUNCTUAL.
2. PLEASE USE THE CORRECT RECEIPT.
3. PLEASE WRITE IT ACCURATELY.

COME ON ADELINE!

2011-02-24T23:07:00.001+08:00

My colleagues are cute! One was saying, they should divorce when they don’t have kids, why got kids already then divorce! So SanSan said is because when they got a kid that’s when all the problems come. Isnt it sad, when you get together, you have to get use to the other one, you get married, you got to tolerate the way each other live, you get a kid, you have to accept the differences each have in raising a kid. So what is this man??? But my parents not bad eh, can tolerate each other for about 20yearssss

I am prepared to work more!

ADEve

2011-02-23T23:06:00.004+08:00

Last Shot, removing makeup alrd!

Xiao Hou also want cameroid!

Bite my finger. ):

*POKE POKE*

Main purpose is my new makeup set!

ADEve!

HAHA! Don’t we look alike! When we were young, my mom likes to dress us in similar clothing. Like same shirt and skirt but different colors. So all the relatives say we look alike, and then when we grow older we thought we don’t look alike anymore. But those photos… photocopy machine!

Today is start of working days! I am going to work like some crazy woman leaving no time to meet my boyf and friends! ):

EXCITED FOR SHANGHAI AND GENTING! But I am disappointed too, because of shanghai my genting is only 2D1N! ):

(:

2011-02-18T22:18:00.000+08:00

I think that I am being fool by my life, always. First, I have to accept the fact that my parents don’t love each other, they are going to divorce and stay at different places. Then I have to accept the fact that I live with my grandma alone with my mom. But after a while, my brother and sister came. So I got use with them beside me. Then they decide to move to stay with my dad, and I got used with them beside me. But now my sister stays here, I have to get use to her beside me. Now she is not here, I couldn’t get used to it!

My stupid life, keep asking me to adapt!

Ok, one more paper, and I am done with year1. Although I know I didn’t work hard, I just hope I don’t retake any modules, because if I happen to retake, I need 4 years in diploma!

I am so excited, March can you come faster! I can’t wait to go Genting, I can’t wait to go Shanghai, I can’t wait for my money to come~~~ palli!!!

National Singapore Museum

2011-02-17T22:06:00.009+08:00

how do i look?

Suppose to be similar to Junjie one, but angle...

See that crazy woman, want knee down for me!

They tag me as extra! HMPM

Uncle Derek

want to kill VS want to play

I like how the sun shine in

OH, nice hippo keychain

POCKY that boyf bought. er, with a geek

4Minute - 'WHY' M/V

2011-02-08T16:51:00.001+08:00

I cant help but keep replaying! HYUNA~

来！大家一起去拜年！

2011-02-06T23:27:00.014+08:00

GOOD LIFE

2011-02-06T23:12:00.000+08:00

Haha! I have nothing to say, I am having a good life now. But in a week time, I am dying… my UT3 is coming and I haven start studying. My maths is another serious deep shit! I should start studying, but when will I start? I also don’t even know. Let me recap what had happen.

Haha, I shouldn’t waste my brain cells on thinking about the past. But ytd was a good day, I finally get to see everyone after so long. And we decide to go Bangkok! Isn’t it great! I hope this trip will be able to make it. I hope to go out and see the world~

Anyway, I was saying wasting brain cells. I always wasted my brain cells on things that make me look stupid. Like how to make my boyf look stupid, isn’t it dumb. Haha! My boyf is super tall~~~

SAM

2011-01-25T12:02:00.002+08:00

Look at yeobo, cute!

I skipped school after so many days... But I am still in the safety range, and it means I will be in school on the last day before it end! I cant remember when was the last time I was in school on the last day. But not exactly in school, I am having field trip, heritage trip. Museum... Oh, I want to watch a musical...

SPOILT???

2011-01-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

Adeline chua! You are such a spoilt kid, not exactly anyway. I always get things how I wanted, even is not how i want it, it wont be too bad. I am too firm with things I want, and I think is kind of bad. i am so used to boyf texting me, so I see his text when I am working. But I hardly reply, but today I don’t see his text. I text him the moment I ended work. My dad also gives me what I want, my friends always give in to me. Even oppa… I think something is wrong with me!
I should start giving in to others, and stop being so independent. ):

Bye, got to do others things.

PS, how should I spend that money???!

B101 Trade show

2011-01-21T18:17:00.008+08:00

Do i look familar?

My faci, soooo distant from us!

Alphabets present Food Bank

Our Booth, polaroid as namecard! How does that sound?

PeiU kissing my hair!

Our polaroid is the roof of the houses and warehouse.

See what peiu did to me!

HAHA! Finally done with our UT2! That day, it was actually just yesterday. Entrepreneur was the best time I had with E25M. Because my team was so fun! My team was the first to present, and after we presented, we just go crazy!

I could see my boyf from my booth, and some of the pictures, he was at the background! HAHA, so cute! He could see me present, and I could see him present. LOL, ADELINE! Not like you never see him present before, believe it or not. I have never officially team with him for school work! HAHA, it is just fated.

2011-01-18T21:14:00.001+08:00

Its Sher yeobo again! i took polaroid myself and 2 exact same shot

I got a stupid stalker boyf! And he will be reading this post super soon!
I AM TIRED! I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO DO! A LOT OF THINGS I WANT TO DO!
I want to:
1. Meet JOJO LEE AND ALL
2. GO GENTING
3: GO BATAM (Spell correctly)
4: GO TIOMAN
5: SPEED UP MY DRIVING STUFF
6. GO OUT WITH YEOBO!

I LOVE MY BOYF, although i nvr say anything about you! HAPPY NOT! HAHA!

It was a fun week!

2011-01-16T19:14:00.005+08:00

Shermaine Yeobo, told us abt cameroid and the class is playing with it!

Haha! I realize I very long nvr update, ha! I am a busy woman ok! Anyway, I couldn’t rlly think of what had happen. But no matter what happen, it has been a nice week! Still in honeymoon period!

BYE! I don’t know what to say! OH YA! I am looking fwd to the Genting trip, because I can go travelling with friends and before that I can go shopping also! OMG! Because of this, peiu and I got a great chat! HAHA!

2011-01-07T14:41:00.006+08:00

New Year eve and 2Jan

I had an enjoyable New Year eve, New Year and second day of the year. Not because I met up with Michelle, but something just happened and it partly happen because of Mich! Anyway, is slow to update after 7days. I am so pampered by people uploading photos the very next day!

Anyway, the first week of school has ended! The time doesn’t seem to be consistent. Sometimes is fast, sometimes is like crawling… I think is because of you! The school part was alright, but my personal life has so much fun! I hope it doesn’t end! I had a surprise on 6 Jan, and the day before was so sweet of you! Humans are just greedy creature!

You are so blur!

2011-01-04T19:52:00.000+08:00

OMG, I cant believe I just deleted everything! How can I be, is 10pages long and I spend long time doing it! OMG! ADELINE YOU ARE SO BLUR! WHAT HAPPEN!??

School has started, isn’t it fast, 2weeks is gone. But I am looking forward to school anyway! But definitely not the UT part… UT2 started today, and srsly without the notes I think I will die!

PS I am tired, shld blog more some other day!

#nowplaying: Beautiful Monster

2011-01-01T08:18:00.003+08:00

I changed my idea about you! You are not getting out of my life, you are coming in, every bits and pieces gna have you! I don’t care what’s in front~ everything that I experience, family problems, friends in and out, had made me more resilient to everything ard me!

ANYWAY, HAPPY NEW YEAR! Is the best ever new year I had this year! Srsly!

Is 8am in the morning, I can’t believe I am awake now! I will call you later! Annyeong~

Dear dairy,

I srsly hate it when people say FML! Because you live your life, there is no way you can fml! But under extreme provocation I tend to scold fuck also, and srsly this 2 weeks of holidays didn’t turn out how I wanted to be! I want to go out and meet my girls, catch up with them and tell them about me, but I didn’t. I want to work and earn more money, but I only work twice out of 16 days! I want to spend time nicely with my sister and brother but they are beyond my control. There are only two things I am happy about this holidays.

Firstly, I manage to talk to my dad over lunch. It’s great to see that I don’t hate him that much and thankful he love me as much!

Secondly, oppa is being so cute. Thankful that I know him, but…

At least not having my sister and brother to share secrets, or hing around me, I have my cousin. At least I am not alone. Angela say I have to be more independent, but do you know that this year I was all on my own, I rlly want to rely on someone. I don’t need a lot, one or two will do! Really!

Harsh reality could you go easy on me, you made me stronger that I can recover from setback. I need sweet things in my life too!

PS I look fwd to school reopen!

Bye~

2010-12-31T00:55:00.001+08:00

나는 매우 화가 나서, what a way to end my 2010... a bad way to end the year should be a good thing, i guess so! bye, I will do my best to 당신을 잊지.

PH

2010-12-30T16:39:00.003+08:00

PH, awesome night!

I saw you Shayne, hahas! I remember I used to blog about him and Raphael a lot, because back then we always have to stay back for fencing and it’s like they were my life. Hahas! Anyway, I went PH and I think I saw him. I was staring at him after I confirm is him, I smile at him! You know I am a very polite person, but guess what from the look he sort of replied like “WTH, this girl so early want start!” seriously, I don’t look very different, and how come he can’t recognize me! I was actually quite happy to see someone I know rlly well!

But those people that went were nice people too, they took care of me! And I love Alan! His height is so perfect man, the rest I am so sorry! But Alan’s height is perfect man! Srsly I was a bit blur……….

What a news in the morning?!

2010-12-27T17:05:00.001+08:00

My blog, my say, if what I am saying you do not like then simple enough, click the red X at top right hand. AND DON’T VIEW MY BLOG INM THE FUTURE!

무슨 문제가있는 사람, 난 아주 작은 변화가 나타납니다, 어떻게 와우 함수는 다른 새로운 일자리를 구해야하는 방법이라고 생각합니다. 지불하지만, 다른 작업보다 높은 시간이 부족하고 장소가 싱가포르 이상의 뿌리입니다. 당신은 할 수 너희들이 두번 작품 전체 휴가 믿는다! 내가 학교를 시작할 때 일하러 가야하지 상상할 수가 없어요. 솔직히말할 수있는 내가이 회사에 대해 어떻게 생각하는지 확인 제 10시간 난 후 아주 작은 슬롯을 받고있다. 당신은, 너무 작은 작업 슬롯을 아직 당신이 파트 타이머를 많이 가지고매 년 반 모집의 핵심 이죠, 그래서 뭐. 하지만 그게 뭐든간에, 내가 70 달러를 얻으려면6 개월 남아있을 것입니다.

Anyway, I am struggling to post the previous things I typed. Yeah, my blog my say, the reply I might get is my company my say. Sometimes you are so unhappy about things happening around you, but you cant do anything about it. Sometimes I want to confide to people, but I just cant say it out. Does that mean that I am not so comfortable with you? I think is kind of contradicting, because I normally will just say out anything that I am unhappy about. Humans are just some contradicting creature!

And yes, since I want to learn Korean, I decide to translate it to Korean, please don’t even bother try translating it back. Is something I want to say yet hope no one knows. Anyway, the translation back makes no sense, but is roughly the idea what i want say!

Merry Christmas!

2010-12-24T16:53:00.004+08:00

Christmas in School Uniform

Celebrate Christmas advance on 23 with beloved sem1 classmate. We celebrate Christmas together in our uniform! Hahas! We Xchange prezzie, I got JunJie’s prezzie and Alan got mine, my photo frame like fragile! STUPID PEIU, still do wasabi chocolate, everyone was looking at each other when we ate the chocolate! We should have more of such gathering, is fun!

Not matter I change for the better or for the worse, I am still as weak, I have never changed to be stronger! ADELINE CHUA XIN FANG! YOU HAVE TO STAY STRONG, stay firm. No matter what comes in the way they are just little hurdles in life, jump over it and it will be over soon!

Merry Christmas People!

Sunrise

2010-12-19T23:28:00.001+08:00

Sometimes is not that I don’t want to do it, the fact that I want to do it very much. As much as I want to, there are many factors to hinder the way. I have to admit that I don’t have the perseverance to continue, unless I want that very much. Till the age of 18, I have yet to want something so badly! Except the fact that I want my mom, brother and sister to stay happy and healthy, is that simple. Sometimes the simplest thing is the hardest to achieve, and I don’t have the control in their life. They have to determine what’s right, what makes them happy.

夕阳无限好,只限黄昏. I love sunrise not sunset. No one understand, although I like you guys to be with me, I am thankful for that but you guys just don’t understand me. Sometimes I don’t understand myself either. Do I love you or do I hate you? I am referring to my dad, I am still struggling in me!

I think I am kind of stepping in the love game again? GOD! Let’s wait for 4 months to determine what it is exactly.

picking up chic now?

2010-12-18T23:34:00.003+08:00

First Dinner with ANGELA UNNIE

I once had the chance to feel the warmth of my dad hand, is hand was so huge. But now, he is no longer there, Wilson once did tarot for me. There will be two guys that will affect my life badly, and there will be another two to help me, and it should be my family, guessing it was my dad and brother. But now my dad is no longer there. I was thinking I used yearSSSSSS to accept that my dad doesn’t love my mom anymore. WHAT A HARSH FACT ON A 14 YEARS OLD GIRL!

My mom warmth never fade away, when I cried so badly because of my grandma, her pat on my shoulder took everything away, although she was feeling miserable too. Yet when i cant do much for her, but I will buck up! Right, Adeline???

I had dinner with Angel today! It’s our first dinner but i told her, MORE TO COME! HAHAS, I enjoy being with her. I think I have change to be like her. Hahas!

ANYWAY, I have a cute friend. Have fun picking up chic!

Bitch, shut up!

2010-12-15T18:34:00.004+08:00

How much do you know about me? We know each other for about 6 months, and do you know I like to talk to you. Is not because I like to talk, is because I can talk normally to you, I don’t need to be the noisy Adeline.

Although I contribute to noise pollution, I am quite sensitive to sounds and prefer to be quiet environment. I am a non-stop hit, but that’s only when you show that you like to talk to me or show interest in what I am talking about, if not I will just shut up. There is two ways to the quiet Adeline.

First, I am comfortable with you. I enjoy your company, that we don’t need to talk a lot yet we are like-minded, we are deeper than we just kept talking to each other. Sometimes you tend to be more attach to this people even you don’t talk a lot to them, XiangQin, Debbie, Alan, Angela and Peiu are the few.

Secondly, I am tired, don't feel like talking, or i srsly have nothing to talk to you because you simply show that you don't like to talk to me, or I just don't like you but is stuck with you for some reasons.

There is this person I also feel comfortable with him, but dairy I am not telling you! Because the time is not right yet, I just know him but yet I don’t rlly feel uncomfortable around him when I am quiet, I can also speak up when I want, and he knows what I am thinking, isn’t it creepy? We only met each other 3 times!

Sentosa

2010-12-15T14:39:00.010+08:00

Sentosa trip with E25M

Dear dairy,

I went to sentosa with my classmate yesterday, it was so hot yesterday! This is the second outing, we have more places to go, we were like tourist. For every stop we reached, we took thousands of photos everywhere, with anyone! I totally enjoy myself, we played at the fountain. The suspense makes it so exciting, we will never know if the water will splash out not! HAHAS, we are like kids at Bugis, but instead of wanting to get wet, we DO NOT WANT TO GET WET.

Oh, another thing, my math UT1 results is out! I consider myself as a math person, I tend to be better at calculations, and I practice for 3 out of 4 problems tested! BUT I GOT A D+! I was still ok when I saw my score, but when the rest tell me they score lower than me and has a higher grade I was so pissed! One more time, I have to admit that I have good friends in poly.

I am not alone in poly, in life, and I am glad to know it!

I cant talk?

2010-12-12T12:09:00.004+08:00

Peiu Chingu got the exact shot, is so me

Jo's 18 Celeb (We took very little photos, waiting for hing)

Peiu Chingu got that exact shot, and I remove tag because i find is super unglam, but when Jo posted it, I just have to accept. Because how can two different people get the exact same shot! SO ADELINE!

I found out something, I love to talk, no one can deny that. A lot of people told me that I could talk to anyone, is somehow imprinted in my mind. But the fact is I cant talk to anyone. I was covering debs work on Friday, I was so talkative on Friday but on Saturday I was so quiet. To conclude means I only talk to people I feel comfortable with, or when someone I feel comfortable then I will talk to strangers. In Ryan’s point of view is, with friends then sociable, without friend keep quiet. Hahas!!!

I think is kind of true eh! Anyway, this week and last week I kept writing cards, I nvr tried I had so much cards cramp together! Anyway, we are all finally 18! Finally ALL, but I am going 19 soon! Wahahahahahahaha…

SAVE MONEY!

I am strong!

2010-12-07T18:28:00.001+08:00

I love my sister and brother. I will do anything for them, including having a dinner with my dad. Everyone say no matter what he is my dad, but he has not fulfill anything that a dad should do, I use to keep this to myself, because I don’t want to hurt him, but now I can’t be bother, because in my heart my dad has die, long long ago.

Evelyn, no matter what happen I am here for you. Don’t be afraid to bother me, hang on there for me and mom. Soon we will be able to be like the past, like I always borrow things from you, snatching the washroom. Try not to do silly things.

Burton, I am also for you. Because I can be very busy at times, so if I don’t contact you, you can call me. Soon we will be watching TV together again, be careful in everything you do. Hang in there, don’t give up!

Any idea why I listen to kpop instead of Chinese or English songs? Not only because I can hear what the singer is feeling, and I am too coward to face up how I feel so I can only hide behind these songs. Like or don’t like is very subjective, so are the lyrics.

I have to be strong, to be here for my brother, my sister, my friends, and my mom!

Holiday mode.

2010-12-06T14:48:00.004+08:00

Angela's 21st Birthday

Did my faci just flare up? I am in holiday mode, I did not do anything today, I am sorry chingus!

I want to eat mango yogurt! MY SCHOOL SERVE THE BEST!

1.5

2010-12-05T23:42:00.001+08:00

HI CHINGUS!
I am so lazy to remove my make-up and bathe, but I rlly think that I tend to behaves better when I am with make-up, not the usual crazy, running ard Adeline.

I started work at WOW, I am in the 11gen. work was fine, with sitting in the car for first half and hours. Then started work easily and getting mosquitos bite everywhere. I need to buy insect repellant and sunblock.

I went to Angela’ 21 birthday celebration, I was late. CANT BLAME ME, I don’t have enough rest. I was mentally tired from Friday to Sunday. 1.5 joke again, and Alan oppa isn’t helping. ):

Fighting!

2010-12-02T19:36:00.001+08:00

I need a lot of money!
But I don’t have any, yet I don’t have the time to work!
OR is my mindset???

you are nothing!

2010-11-28T23:21:00.000+08:00

We don’t know how to communicate with each other. Sometimes when I see you work so hard, I rather you give up on me, at least things will be easier on you. The best way I can thank you is only by studying hard, no matter how much I don’t like I have to continue. Thanks mom!
The one that has the ability is not doing anything, he even ask my sister to stop studying! What’s the matter with you! Are you mad, without a cert what can my sister do! You bloody idiot, don’t even expect to see me in your funeral!
No matter how your see things, everyone will tell me he is your dad! My dad, what has he done? I can’t remember any, no matter how hard I try, I just can’t remember what he has done for the family. I had the chance to stay with my siblings to share accessories, bags, opinions with my sister, I had the chance to teach my brother at home, and I had the chance to watch TV with my brother and sister. Who took it away from me?! You, MY FATHER! What is wrong, what did I do to deserve this? What did my mom do?

2010-11-25T22:03:00.000+08:00

I think I have become I zombie, I suddenly loses my senses and feelings. Sometimes I have to think hard to know what I am actually thinking about, how I am feeling. Or sometimes I feel like telling someone something, but I don’t even know how to phrase it.

Sleep eat sleep eat sleep eat. That’s how I spend this week. Even it was Debbie birthday I wanted to do something for her but i was so exhausted?

My dad asks me out for lunch, should I go? I don’t want to go but my brother uses my mom to threaten me in a way. I was actually so angry about it, but I am thinking about my mom. I can’t lose her.

Heartless?

PEK CHEK AH!

2010-11-16T10:09:00.002+08:00

I actually don’t want go to school today, but I thought of what tingyong say yesterday and I decide to come. As I said, I am sad. For no reason, so I actually told yong, and she told me tomorrow (which is today) will be a better day. Sometimes when you receive such text it does brighten your day. She really made me felt that today would be a good day, and motivate me to come to school.

But when you guys heard how I start my day, your wont blame me for being so grumpy in the morning. I woke up at 7.30am which normally I would not go school time. But I woke up and cab with angel. But Jeremy also came, I am fine with it too. But the thing is there are 3 people waiting for cab and there was not a single cab at sight! So I called him and asked him to take a cab from his house. He kept bloody tell me that if come my house is a detour, will be expensive and blah blah blah. Then initially I was supposed to take the cab from the opposite (Cross road1). Then finally he takes from his house (Cross back1). Then later say I cross road would be easier (Cross road2). Then I saw U-turn, and thought that go through gambus faster (Cross back2). But he kept telling me to cross the road! I look like an idiot that kept cross the road! I was pek check to the max!

AND no come true dream! PLEASE! I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO MY LOVED ONES!

心情不好, still start the day litdat! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG!

GET LOST!

2010-11-15T13:21:00.004+08:00

Hing's belated 18 celeb

I dont feel like talking, smiling. emotionless~~~

Dont irritated me NOW!

i dont feel good.

2010-11-14T17:40:00.000+08:00

I think ME 心情不好. I don’t know what’s wrong. It has been like that since Friday. Like there is something in you but you just can’t seem to say it out. I thought it will be gone after awhile, but is still here. Even yesterday after hing’s belated birthday celebration I don’t feel good.

What’s the matter is wrong with you ADELINE! UTs are here, you have to control your emotions, grab hold of yourself and study. Do you remember your stem GPA?

The song make you cry, the song make me cry.

2010-11-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

I once thought of that too, but they were so heartless that time. I will nvr forget that day. But what’s the point. He’s dead.

Suddenly i hate changes.

2010-11-10T19:20:00.002+08:00

My New Classmates

I went to vivo ytd! It was a fieldtrip to find out about the F&B sector, but is practically wasting my time. We just spend around 30 mins to finish the wksht, and the rest of 2h and 30 mins to do our own things. My classmates were nice enough to eat Carl JR with me. It reminds me of Vanessa, YiXi and Riona. Those were the days…

After that, I went for a movie with peiUUU and all. They were so late that we went in first. The movie is kinda good, but I think I am too chicken!

I think we are not as bonded as others, they had lots of discussion. But we didn’t, it makes me feel that we are going nowhere. And someone, which is you! Make me feel that you are with them, then just go ahead and find them. Don’t you think is pointless for you to be with us, when you all are so attracted to them. Sometimes is kind of tired trying to pull you to be with us because of her. No I don’t even think we pulled you to be with us, we are together because of mutual gain? I still miss the previous batch of people! But they are used to their new ones.
Not that I dislike changes, but this change brings me nowhere…

NO, dont snowball!!!

2010-11-07T13:02:00.000+08:00

I cant help but complaining to everyone I see! I spend $374.50 to fix my bloody LCD screen! When it crack I think my heart stops… I was so lost, unlike certain times there was nobody with me, during O levels result release I had Dennis to help me, when my family was falling apart I had Qin, Jo, when I broke up I had Jolene and Jo. But that day I had no one... I swear I never want to go through that again!
My UT1 is coming, I srsly need to study! Because my stem GPA is calling me for help! I went to study ytd, but! ADELINE I don’t see the effort in you! I have 5 modules and 4 topics each! Is not really a lot Adeline! If you are not starting, is going to snowball till you feel like dying…
Bye dairy, just have the sudden urge to talk to you!

REGRETTED!

2010-10-28T22:28:00.000+08:00

For the first time in my life, I ever regret not going to school! SRSLY! I have never being what I am today. I considered myself as a quick learner, but a lazy one of course. Usually, I will be the one teaching others and getting angry when they don’t get the concepts or understand what I am trying to say. But that’s not the case for today! I wasn’t in school for last week financial accounting, so I missed the lessons and I don’t understand a single shit! I have to keep asking my teammates and classmates! Then it wasn’t the end… I have to ask Angel and XueYi how to do my RJ! I srsly feel I am so useless, and thankful to them especially Derek.

This made me think on how those people who doesn’t do things in class, how did they felt when their teammates don’t even bother to teach them, how they suppose to do their RJ, how can they score in their DG, how are they going to do their UT? I have to admit I am not a very good team player. Because I don’t have good temper, so when the others don’t understand me I tend to “forget” about them and I figure my way out MYSELF.

NOTE TO SELF: ADELINE RMB HOW YOU FELT TODAY, HELP OTHERS WHEN THEY DON’T GET THE CONCEPT AND YOU DO. CONTROL YOUR TEMPER. AND AND AND THE MOST IMPT IS NEVER EVER SKIP SCHOOL BECAUSE YOU ARE TIRED. NEVER EVER PARTIAL BECAUSE YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND!!!

I was on the bus today, and suddenly thinking of what’s happening during night safari. I rmb I initially want to go Halloween @ night safari with hing and all but because of various reasons I ended up going with xueyi and all. I also rmb hing said that we (Jo and all) should go universal studio tgt, but she alrd went with her JC classmates, we were suppose to go sentosa tgt, but we all have gone with other friends. Not that I am trying to say it wasn’t fun going to places with my “new friends” but it was planned to go with “old friends”. We are separated and we can’t meet up as often, things we wanted to do tgt were never the case anymore.

Halloween!

2010-10-26T16:51:00.014+08:00

Halloween @ Night Safari

HEY YO YO YO~~~

What a week I had! I was so busy last week that I didn’t have a chance to blog... I had to work, attend talks! And for the first time, TGIF! I totally enjoy myself on Friday. A coward like me to celebrate Halloween is quite ridiculous. I have nice friends, I was “protected” throughout the trip! The “ghost” is so disgusting, their face is decomposed, and some have weird, eerie laughter. And my hair was so messy!!! Hahas!!! AND i don't dare to take photos with the "ghost".

ANG GUYS! I have something to tell you also, I quit Starbucks alrd. I have actually missed school once, because I ended work too late. My daily grade are also affected, I have a C! First C for this semester, a C and a X is very serious when I want to get a good grade to pull up my stem GPA. Sian-ed! But I also need to work la, I have to wear cooperate attire very week and I need clothing that complies with the school rules…

Guys, wish me luck! I am getting sick of school. And YOU YOU YOU! YOU SUCK!

HYAS!

2010-10-11T22:00:00.001+08:00

OMGOOSH! I can’t believe I am going to school in a few hours time! I don’t know if I can sleep later, but even if I can’t sleep I will still have to get up at 6.45am fresh, recharge! Is the first day of school, and I don’t want to portray myself as a sloppy and brainless kind of person! This sem ahead of me! I have to excel! My gpa for my first sem is way too lousy. ADELINE ADELINE GO GO GO!

Hyas… this is the first time in my life that I have to work and study at the same time. Er, not exactly first time but I am kind of stressed up over it. Hyas… I don’t know lah, I wait for the problem to come first then decide what to do!

BREATH IN BREATH OUT!!! HA HA HA!

BOTH!

2010-10-05T18:16:00.000+08:00

Why do I need to force myself to choose? Why can’t I take both? Although I will give up one in the end, but at least I try both to see which one suit me more. But today I didn’t do any drinks! I just kept washing and washing, I hope my dear fingers are alright!

you tell me how?

2010-10-04T00:31:00.000+08:00

Sometimes life is being harsh on you, but you can’t hide under your blanket and cry. You have to face it up, my grandpa is gone. He is never going to come back. I will never ever see that smile again, I will never see him sitting there watching TV. I miss him so much, but he will never return. I remember that during his funeral we had to burn the incense paper inside where he is. I was once burning and telling him that I will be careful when I choose my husband, I will not be my mom. I also told him not to worry about my mom, she have 3 kids to take care of her. So what she doesn’t have a husband? She has 3 kids that she brought up with all the hardship. When I was younger I remember I told him that I will bring my boyfriend and let him see, so to make sure I choose the correct one. When he was in the hospital he said that he don’t know if he can see us getting married. Why the reality doesn’t goes easy on us? My grandpa is a nice person, he never cheated. He helps whenever he can, why? I just missed him so much suddenly…

I finally ended my attachment at great world city, I might not see the partner at great world again, good or bad. I don’t know. I am going to start at tanglin soon, good or bad? I also don’t know, suddenly my life is full of uncertainness. It is also full of choice, but there are people that will be affected because of my choice… ):

Yes? No?

2010-10-02T22:14:00.000+08:00

I was thinking of something I want to share, but I can’t remember… but before that I was thinking of forgiving. No matter what I did wrong, my mom will forgive me. From young, my mom taught me if you do something wrong and apologize people will forgive you. People forgive you because you know your mistakes. But in the reality this is not true, you are not forgiven even you know your mistakes, you have to think of solutions to prevent it from happening again. Sometimes when I tried to explain, but they don’t want to hear it. Sometimes I feel so weiqu, but is fun working at star bucks. Hyas, debs had transfer partly because of me.

MONEY! MONEY! MONEY!

Should I quit or not?

MUNDANE!

2010-09-29T12:39:00.000+08:00

I think my life is very mundane recently, because is all about working. I have a lot of activities in mind to do but no one I can find to do it with me! Like I want to go night safari for Halloween, go drinking, go ice skating, go shopping with hing. I also want to learn a lot of things. But I just can’t make up my mind to do which first. And who to do it with… do I have someone 24/7 on standby for me?

I think I had fun. It was only 2D1N chalet, so we had bbq yesterday night. We start the fire at about 5+ but we could only start bbq at around 7pm. the charcoal we buy could not work, and it was the people next to us using eye power for 30mins and decides to help us. But instead of being full because of eating I think I was full because I drank so much water before it. We did the usual chalet stuff.

PS, I know you might find it hard to confide to us, but know that we are there and we don’t force it out of you!